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  Prologue

  LET’S GET HAPPY

  I’m starting over.

  With this diary. With everything.

  So welcome to it.

  And if we’re going to be friends—and I know we are—then I might as well be completely straight with you. I mean, what kind of person lies in her own diary? There’s something I need to get out of the way before we get any further.

  I started this diary as a patient at “Crazytown.” That’s what us locals call the psych ward at St. Augustine Community Hospital in Portland, Oregon, where I went for a ten-day “observation period” not too long ago.

  Look, before you jump on the pity train and start thinking that this is going to be one of those god-awful books where the “big reveal” is that the girl goes nuts and a lot of her quirky, lovable friends in the asylum go berserk and try to kill her, let me just say that It Wasn’t That Bad. People were actually really nice to me. In fact, everyone found me fascinating!

  In other words, they observed me. And I observed me, too. It was all very observational. They were trying to make sure I wasn’t going to hurt myself, and I was trying to figure out why I had spent the last three months crying absolutely all the time and at the most embarrassing moments possible, like at my friend Katie’s house while we were watching Bridesmaids. I mean, I completely lost it when Melissa McCarthy pooped in the sink. Katie started to get really concerned then because that is not like me. At all.

  Does that sound sane to you?

  But after ten days in Crazytown, I finally decided that I wasn’t too much crazier than most kids I know. I was just furious—mostly at my mom, who disappeared one Tuesday afternoon without a word or even a good-bye kiss.

  For a while, I worried that something horrible had happened to her. Then I worried that nothing had happened and she just decided to leave. I still don’t know the answer, which can definitely make someone a certain kind of crazy (we’re talking squirrel-stuck-in-a-storm-drain freak-out).

  But I am feeling a lot better now. I’m working on Getting Happy. My best friend, Katie, has been doing a lot of reading on happiness lately—like, books on how to Get Happy. (Yes, there are instruction manuals.) Some of the books say you should challenge yourself and try new things. Writing in my diary is supposed to help, too.

  Now that I have been certified “sound of mind,” things are really looking up.

  Chapter 1

  THE UN-UNITED NATIONS

  I’m Cuckoo Clarke.

  This story mostly takes place in a small town outside Portland called North Plains. There’s a gun shop outside town that has an annual Back-to-School Sale. (I’m anti-gun.) Every August, our town hosts the World’s Largest Elephant Garlic Festival. (I’m pro-garlic.) Most people around here wear Nikes, Portland’s proudest. (I prefer Uggs, but I wouldn’t say I’m definitely pro- or anti-footwear.)

  And now, welcome to the main setting of this show: North Plains High School! It looks the way you’re probably picturing it.

  The hallways are full of the Usual Suspects: Jocks, Nerds, Twinkies, Otaku, Barbies, Goths, Eurotrash, Jailbait, Stoners, Joiners, Glommers, Delusionals, Haters, Wankstas, Thespians, Teachers, Terror Teachers, Zomboids, Robots, Gleeks, United Colors of Benettoners, Libertarians, Activists, Juvies, Baristas, Blahs, and—my best friends—the Freakshow.

  That’s right. We call ourselves the Freakshow. My best friend, Brainzilla (Katie), had this idea that we should give our little group a nickname that’s far worse than anything any of the diseased minds in our school could dream up.

  Don’t most high schools smell/look/sound the same?

  Anyway, after the Freakshow was born, we actually took it a step further and gave ourselves insulting individual nicknames, too. I think we did a pretty good job with them:

  Brainzilla is number one in our class. She’s IB (that’s International Baccalaureate) and determined to be the first person in her family to go to college. She has set her sights on Yale and has even already scheduled an interview—two years early. She works her butt off constantly and then goes home to take care of her three little brothers. Her parents work weird shifts, so her house is messy and complicated and basically covered in snot.

  Hana named herself Eggroll (“Eggy” for short) after a couple of racist creeps asked her about her “dumplings.” She has about a thousand interests, but sadly for her parents, school isn’t one of them. Paul has zits everywhere that I know about, so “Zitsy” was an easy choice. He’s deathly afraid he’ll end up working in his father’s plumbing business. Peter covers us with both the jocks and the Religious Right, so “Tebow” seemed like a good fit. He’s also insanely good looking. Flatso, formerly Beverly, is overweight, but also flat breasted, which is rare and borderline tragic. She happens to be strong enough to rip your head off. Not that she would. She’s the sweetest person I know.

  And then there’s me, Cuckoo.

  So now you’ve met the whole gang. You’d think with the zillion other cliques, clubs, and posses in this place that we’d all fit in somewhere, but we don’t. The truth is that this school is a mess of warring nations. Jocks hate Nerds. Barbies hate Goths. Blah blah blah. But my friends and I are planning to do something about that.

  It’s Monday, and it’s raining, so the hallways are wet as we all drag in droplets on our shoes and clothes.

  Digger Whitlock gives me a cheerful hello as he passes by my locker.

  His family owns the local funeral parlor. They specialize in Vegas-glitz coffin interiors, and Digger’s dad will—for an extra two hundred bucks—dress up as Elvis and sing “Love Me Tender” at your beloved’s interment. So he’s allowed to be a little messed up.

  And there’s also this: Digger’s older brother died in a car crash last year. He had a beautiful coffin. But even so, it gives me the shivers to think about Andy Whitlock. I really hate the idea of being dead. (Although I love sleeping, so I’m not sure what that’s about.)

  I think I just hate endings in general. They’re so… final.

  Maybe that’s another reason I’m starting this diary. I’m a big fan of beginnings. Especially beginnings—and second chances.

  And short chapters, obviously. So, I think you get the picture. Of me. Of my friends. Of North Plains High School.

  Basically, it’s like being back in the asylum.

  With more homework.

  Chapter 2

  HOW TO SURVIVE HOMEROOM (AND THE REST OF THE DAY)

  I’m sitting in homeroom scribbling and surviving.

  I was reading Pride and Prejudice a minute ago, and I’m really into the book. I just love that Janie Austen.

  Now I’m imagining myself meeting a boy in my personal version of Pride and Prejudice. His name is Laurence Darcy, and he’s the younger brother of Fitzwilliam Darcy, better known as Mr. Darcy, and he is just so charming and British and Jane Austen-y that it’s like I’m in homeroom heaven!

  We start chatting at a society ball at Netherfield Park.

  Laurence Darcy is pretty dreamy. I’m just loving all those great nineteenth-century manners!

  Hmm. I may be in love. Stay tuned.

  Laurence Darcy gets me through the rest
of homeroom and, let’s face it, the rest of my classes, until lunchtime.

  Hold your fire, Teachers, Barbies, and all Haters, I think as I walk through the cafeteria doors. I’m immediately hit in the face with the greasy, smelly reminder that the caf offers almost nothing that hasn’t taken a long and luxurious bath in the FryDaddy. It’s sick. The Activists are lobbying for a salad bar, and I say, “Dare to dream, Activists!” I really love their hopeful energy and vision for a brighter tomorrow!

  Today I take my brown bag over to the Freakshow Corner. That’s the table where my biffles and I sit every day. It has a good view of the parking lot.

  When I get there, I see a Hater—Marty Bloom—trying to shove something into Zitsy’s face. Zitsy’s trying to get away, but his head is pulled way back, and I’m worried that his neck might snap like a rubber band.

  “Come on! You freaks usually can’t keep your pieholes shut!” Marty says.

  “Get away from him, Marty,” I say. Zitsy has been pushed around so much that he doesn’t even fight back anymore. He says he’s used to it, but I’m not. I really hate it. “Leave him alone!”

  Marty backs off, surprise curving his straight black eyebrows. “I was just fooling around.” He punches Zitsy in the arm. Maybe he means it to be playful, but Zitsy winces. “What’s the big deal, Maggie?”

  “I’m Cuckoo, remember?” I tell him. “And Zitsy’s my friend. Don’t touch.”

  “Compassion and respect, people!” Eggy pipes up as she walks up behind me.

  “What she said,” I agree.

  “That’s what Jesus would do,” Tebow puts in, which is a little over the top, but not completely wrong, either. He sits down next to Zitsy so Marty won’t try anything again.

  Marty narrows his eyes. “That right there is what makes people want to mash pie in your face,” he snaps, and walks off. “You owe me three bucks for the food,” he calls back over his shoulder to Zitsy, then cracks up.

  Zitsy looks down at the plate that’s sitting on the table in front of him. “I hate pie,” he says quietly. Eggy hands him a pile of napkins, and he starts wiping gooey peach from his face.

  Flatso has joined us now, and she wraps her thick arms around Zitsy. Then Eggy does, then Tebow, then me.

  “Is everything okay?” Brainzilla asks as she walks over to join us. “Why are we all hugging?” She doesn’t wait for an answer. She just puts down her tray and joins in.

  And that is why I love my friends. Because they aren’t afraid to create a Human Hug-Blob in the middle of the cafeteria, even if it means getting stared at.

  Chapter 3

  DEPRIVED

  After what seems like ten years but is still too short to me, we stop hugging and get back to our seats. Fifteen minutes left in lunch. Plenty of time, as long as we skip chewing and go for the direct-food-inhale.

  “Okay, so that hug gave me a new idea,” Eggy announces.

  “For Operation Happiness?” Brainzilla guesses, and Eggy nods.

  “Okay, so the idea is called Hands Across the Football Field,” Eggy says.

  “I already love it,” Flatso gushes.

  “The whole school would join hands for five minutes,” Eggy says, and I look at her like she’s the one who’s cuckoo.

  Zitsy seems into it, though, and leans forward. “And then what?”

  “Maybe pass a squeeze back and forth,” Eggy adds. Wow. It’s so… over the top.

  “Um—” I start, but Zitsy interrupts.

  “I think the key here is snacks.”

  “I wasn’t thinking snacks,” Eggy admits.

  “Either way, it definitely has potential,” Brainzilla says, but Tebow shakes his head.

  “Coach Struthers hates having civilians out on ‘his’ turf,” he says. “He’ll get the whole team to chase us off.”

  It’s true. Coach Struthers is a nut about the turf. Once I went to watch Tebow practice, and when I stepped on one of the chalk lines, I got whistle-blasted loud enough to cause brain damage.

  Yep. That’s just one example of the tragicomedy that is North Plains High.

  It’s kind of like Hamlet meets Bridesmaids.

  I watch Zitsy push his bag of vinegar chips around, not eating them. That’s not like him. Usually he eats so fast and so much that it’s like watching a wood chipper. Zitsy not eating is bumming me out.

  “You know what? Marty kind of got me down,” I say. Then I stand up, give my whole body a shake, and say, “Get off! Get off! GET OFF!” This usually helps me brush away icky, ugly, heebie-jeebie feelings, but it doesn’t do much to counteract my reputation as a nut job.

  “Why does Marty have to be such a Hater, anyway?” Flatso asks, not really expecting an answer.

  But I surprise Flatso with my response. “Because”—I give her a grin—“he’s deprived.”

  “Hellz yeah,” says Eggy, and Tebow crows, “It’s on!”

  “Oh, boy.” Brainzilla puffs out a breath that lifts her bangs from her forehead. “Here we go.”

  Yeah, that’s right—it’s time for another round of our favorite game: DEPRIVED!

  Goal: To be the object of greatest pity.

  How to Play: State a way in which your life has been hideously deprived.

  In the end, we declare Zitsy the winner.

  He spends the last ten seconds of lunch vacuuming chips and high-octane Coke into his digestive system.

  That’s when I know that my friend is all right.

  Chapter 4

  LOVE AND BIO

  We interrupt this diary for an announcement: There’s a new kid in bio!

  He’s just standing at the front of the room scanning the class with his big blue eyes, like maybe he can’t decide where to sit. He chews on a fingernail, adorably nervous. I’m still all about Operation Happiness, so I walk right up to him and introduce myself.

  “Welcome to North Plains High School!” I say. “We’re all about helping each other here. Our motto is ‘We’re in this together!’ ” (Actually, our motto is “Educating students to succeed in a changing world,” but that sounds kind of ominous to me. Mine’s better.)

  “Um, thanks.” An awkward laugh stumbles from his lips. “Uh—do you want to take a seat?”

  “Oh, sure, but I already have a lab partner.” I wave my finger at Flatso, who is sitting at our black marble lab table with her notebook open and pen poised.

  “Helleeeeew!” Flatso calls in an inexplicably English accent.

  “Okay, well, why don’t you go sit down,” New Kid says, which strikes me as a little weird. But I assume he thinks maybe we’ll have more time to hang out after class, so I head over to my seat.

  “He’s absolutely darling!” Flatso whispers.

  “Why are you suddenly British?” I whisper back.

  “Don’t you think it makes me sound more refined?” she asks as the New Kid walks up to the front of the room and starts the class.

  Yes, that’s right—he’s not the New Kid. He’s the New Teacher!

  I can feel my science grade drop out from under me.

  “Um, hello. I’m Winston Quinn.” He starts to write it on the board, and the chalk gives off a deafening screech. “Heh,” he says, and starts again, but then the chalk breaks. He scrambles underneath his desk to get it, and when he pops back up, his face is pink. He takes a deep breath and says, “Well, anyway, you can all call me Winnie.”

  “What happened to Ms. Donaldson?” Langston Connors shouts from the back of the room.

  “Uh—I’m not—” Winnie blushes deeper, and sweeps his blond bangs out of his eyes. I swear, he looks like he’s sixteen. “I’m not actually at liberty to discuss it.”

  That sets the whole room off.

  “Um, could everybody… could you all… settle down, please,” Winnie says, sort of waving his hands a little bit.

  He’s never going to get anywhere with that, I think. I feel pretty bad for him as he sits down behind his desk and nervously looks at his watch. Then he starts scanning the room ag
ain, but I realize he’s not just looking at the students. He’s studying the walls, the desks, even the ceiling, like he’s never been inside a regular old classroom before.

  The room is still going strong with theories, but the main points for now are she’s not coming back, Winnie is our new teacher, and the front row no longer needs to worry about Ms. Donaldson’s rampant spittle problem.

  Meanwhile, beside me, I can see Flatso falling madly in love.

  I’m not the kind of person who gets crushes on teachers, but I can absolutely see where she’s coming from. He’s definitely working the cute cherub look with his pink cheeks and punk preppy haircut.

  I try to picture Flatso and Winnie out on a date. Where would they go? The gym first, then the natural science museum?

  Winnie eventually gets everyone calmed down and calls the roll, and when he says, “Margaret Clarke?” I raise my hand and say, “Everyone calls me Cuckoo.”

  He gives me a dimply smile. “All right, if you insist. Cuckoo it is.”

  “Her friends call her Kooks,” Flatso chimes in. Still English.

  “So noted, Kooks.” And he actually writes that down. I’m starting to suspect that Winston Quinn might be extremely cool.

  Chapter 5

  MRS. MORRIS, THE DOG, AND ME

  When I get home, Mrs. Morris is waiting for me with a plate of cookies. I feel like I’m six years old again… except that nobody ever had cookies waiting for me when I was six. But here they are, freshly baked and delicious! Mrs. Morris is my foster mom, and I love her, and she loves me, but we never really get into it like that.

  I’m really touched that she went to all the trouble of baking me cookies, and when she heads toward the fridge to get me some soy milk, I leap out of my chair.